“O my lord, O best of the givers of benediction, if
you will kindly grant me the benediction I desire, please let me not meet death
from any of the living entities created by you. Grant me that I not die within
any residence or outside any residence, during the daytime or at night, nor on
the ground or in the sky. Grant me that my death not be brought by any being
other than those created by you, nor by any weapon, nor by any human being or
animal. Grant me that I not meet death from any entity, living or non-living.
Grant me, further, that I not be killed by any demigod or demon or by any great
snake from the lower planets. Since no one can kill you in the battlefield, you
have no competitor. Therefore, grant me the benediction that I too may have no
rival. Give me sole lordship over all the living entities and presiding
deities, and give me all the glories obtained by that position. Furthermore,
give me all the mystic powers attained by long austerities and the practice of
yoga, for these cannot be lost at any time.” – Srimad Bhagavatham
If we don’t want to realise the purpose of life as a human being and indulge in everything else other this, we are inferior to even demons whose only purpose in their life is sense gratification. The above verse is from Srimad Bhagavatham where Hiranyakasipu, the king of the demons, on performing long austerities to Lord Brahma asks for the above benedictions thinking himself over-smart only to be put to dust later by Lord Narasimhadeva, the magnificent incarnation of The Supreme Personality of Godhead – Lord Shri Krishna/Lord Vishnu.
This prayer/poem “May I” is an inspiration based on the above benedictions by Hiranyakasipu in order to understand what is our actual position and what should be our real aspiration. “May I” is dedicated to Lord Narasimhadeva, the man-lion incarnation.
May I beg Lord Shri Krishna that I forever be under His
protection and fully surrendered to him!
May these transgressions from spiritual pursuits to be realised only for the time being till I am absolved of my family responsibilities and obligations!
May I able to quit family life then and forever be under
Your mercy and protection O Shri Krishna!
May I always live with minimalistic needs while all the time
involve myself in chanting your Holy names, reading, writing and listening
about You and Your pastimes!
May I quit this body at Your will, while being forever
remain surrendered to You life after life!
May this soul always be at Your mercy, so there is no reason
to ask for any benediction from You!
May whatever be the condition You put to this soul Please
let me always remember You because without your remembrance this soul just cannot
May I beg You to make
me remain as a dust under Your lotus feet since I don’t know to perform any
austerities properly nor I know to interpret you properly. All I know is You
May I forever be under the shelter of your pure devotees and
by fully surrendered to them to solicit their company to continuously chant Your
names and Your Holy pastimes!
May I not want any palatable food that kindles the taste
buds that drag me into the mode of passion and ignorance. I also don’t want
anything else that will make me forget You!
May I not sleep at all because it will make me forget You and to chant Your Holy names all the time – Hare Krishna Mahamantra, Vishnu Sahasranamam and all glorious prayers written for You by Your devotees – prayers that are worthy to be sung!
May I always sing Your prayers describing Your insignia – Sudarshan chakra conch club sword bow etc which are non-different from You!
May I always sing prayers about your glorious incarnations
matsya kurma varaha Narasimha Vamana Parasurama Rama Balarama Krishna Kalki which
are non-different from you!
May I always sing prayers about your consorts who are your internal potencies – Goddess Maha Lakshmi, Srimati Radharani and so on!
May I forget hunger, thirst, family relationships and whatever
material assets you have given me that will anyway leave me at the time of quitting
this body which is only a bag that is constantly emitting foul substances but
still wants to enjoy these impermanent things called material nature!
May I always remember You because You only are the object and
objective worth remembering!
May I always remember you because You are the only one who
is eternal – existing before the creation, during the creation, during the sustenance,
during the annihilation and also after the annihilation You only remain!
May I always be surrendered to You without any inhibitions or
May I always remain surrendered to You and be under Your
protection seeking absolutely nothing from anyone or anything else!
May I always continue to remain in this mindset of being fully surrendered to You under any situation that may be imposed because of karma!
May this commitment of being fully surrendered to you never
ever waver no matter what, irrespective of whatever tribulations that I may be
May this act of surrendering to you unconditionally be the
only permanent thing in my mind!
May I beg you to accept my Surrender to you – this
insignificant soul – and resolve me of all the sins and harms that I have
committed to myself and to any living being either willingly or unwillingly!
May I sincerely seek Your forgiveness and beg You to accept
my surrender and that I face all the eventualities that will arise out of my
foolishness wholeheartedly and make sure I do not commit the same foolishness
Finally, please accept my surrender and make me do
everything for You without expectation of any reward and make me do everything
ONLY for the satisfaction to you!
And by surrendering to You unconditionally Please let your
unsurmountable illusory energy Maya not act on me for without wholehearted
surrender to Your Lotus feet, this is just not possible!
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare
Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare!
Om Namo Naaraayanaaya!
Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya!